Giving Up or Giving In

After almost 18 years I can still celebrate being cancer free!  Throughout the years, when I have a bad day or complain about pain or get grumpy because of other side effects, I’ve been told, “at least you are alive…” followed by a wide variety of reasons I should be glad.

I totally get that. I am thrilled that I got to see my children grow up, and that I can be with my husband for many years.

So, don’t get me wrong, I am grateful to be alive. I thank God for his blessing of surviving cancer.

I also have been told, “so many people have it far worse off than you. Think of them and it will help you…”

I totally get that too! In fact I tell myself that almost every day.

I’ve also been told that I am a very strong person. I appreciate those who say that, but I know more about me. I am a very weak person. I have many, many days of self pity. I get grouchy over little things. It is often my husband who sees me at my worst. My children get their fair share of my bad moods too.

With all of this, take my negative posts with a grain of salt knowing that I write them for two reasons. One is to get it off my chest and give my family a break from being on the receiving end of a down day. The second is that I know that when I was going through cancer treatments I searched to find kindred spirits; someone who could relate. I needed to see that what I was going through, and that what I felt was normal.

On the flip side, know that my positive posts are a celebration. They help me focus on the good things. I also hope that they may lift the spirits of someone who may also be feeling down.

Feel free to comment on any of my posts. I’d love to hear from you. You can share your own story, a good thought, or even your own down day.

Giving Up or Giving In
Blessings to all – Tiny